Scott Stilson


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“Orange Crush” (1988) sounds like R.E.M. had been listening to a lot of U2.

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“A person who’s not open to answers doesn’t really have questions” (Samuel James, “Letter to a Deconstructing Christian”).

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“The greatest delicacies taste of nothing when one dines alone.”

— Hanshiro Tsugumo in Harakiri (1962), written by Shinobu Hashimoto

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Communication is love. If I’m involved, at least, if there’s any ambiguity at all, it must be squashed. Love demands it. However, I think one person’s ambiguity that needs to be squashed is another person’s opportunity for the exercise of commonsense intuition.

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The one thing I’ll say about The Magnificent Seven (2016): I cried a little—touched and pleased—that the three heroes who remained alive at the end of the film were the black man, the Latino, and the Native American. That’s a good change.

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Methinks 1 Corinthians 11:17 tempers a mindless application of Hebrews 10:25. is.gd/1cor1117heb1025

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Love itself is the prime spiritual discipline. All others, including Bible study and prayer, are good only insofar as they serve to empower, amplify, or inform love.

Pianists don’t cultivate their skill and musicianship by reading books on the history of piano music or by talking with composers, as enriching and obliquely helpful as that might be. They improve by playing piano.

Similarly, the way you get better and more consistent at loving is by trying to love.

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Carla: Except for Sully. He’s from Venus.
Sullivan: Are you saying beautiful and normally portrayed to non-school groups as naked?

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Speaking harshly was one of Jesus’ love languages.

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I do confess my having daydreamed today about fronting a U2 and Britpop cover band with college friends Aaron G., Jason, Aaron R., and Adam R., with Josh A. joining for acoustic numbers.

Ironically, and with apologies to Josh, it was late U2 (“Red Flag Day”) that first inspired the daydream. Also, friend of friend Chris F. was there, too, but I wasn’t sure how to fit in so many guitarists.

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For Christmas, can I have socks? Like, thirty socks. And wrap them all in cash.

— Sullivan

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Become love plankton.

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Lord, be more than a topic.

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I somehow sneezed up my shorts!

— Sullivan

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Oh, that’s just dirt from earlier.

— Éa, coughing

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Scott: What needs to happen for a bill to become law?
Éa: Oh, I know! The bill needs to sing a song! 🎵

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When it comes time to make music, think: How is this love?

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You only have so much time left with your kids in the house. Prioritize spending time with them. Make music with Éa!

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Thought: For every proactive, special act of love I make toward my family (e.g., the Wynn postcard I just dropped at the concierge desk), make a proactive, special act of love toward an enemy.

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How do I want something but not grow anxious at its delay, interruption, or incompletion? This question came to me in the form of “The trick is to want things without becoming anxious when I don’t get them” as soon as I got out of bed this morning. It’s this anxiety that has been producing grumpiness recently. Here’s how:

EDIT (12/28): There’s one other thing I’ll need: refusal to watch television or movies designed for entertainment. (I’m looking at you, Hawkeye.) Try though I might to think otherwise, I view it as a waste of time. I have for twenty years. There’ll be no changing it.

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Things I learned today:

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Things I learned yesterday:

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Carla’s comment about the killer “taking away [the] power“ of our main character in Secret Sunshine is illuminating for how things may have shifted since the days of Jesus: It used to be that the Pharisees could lord unforgiven-ness over people as a means of power, hence the importance of Jesus forgiving sins and—gasp!—authorizing scruffy Galileans, et al to do the same. But now, we’ve taken the requirement to forgive and turned it into an instrument for the maintenance of power. Ugh!

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I’m living my life against the grain my heart. I’m hoping this realization is God answering my prayer that I do only what I see Him doing, that that’s all I want to do.

Overall, I’m spending too much time at my “helm,” that is, my computer workstation, thinking that the key to well-lived life resides somewhere in Remember the Milk, and not enough time resting and relating.

In my crosshairs as I turn toward changing my life are:

Along those lines, here is what I propose:

  1. I spend no more than one hour attempting to accomplish private, at-my-workstation tasks. I set a timer to facilitate keeping to that limit.
  2. For exercise, I think all that I’m going to try for now is to (1) do my RDLs and perhaps squats at Climb Nittany when I have the opportunity and (2) be willing to shorten the routine on those same days.
  3. Carla and I do the monthly accounting together.
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“With” is the still the word of the week.